Category: cancer

  • Why Poetry

    Why Poetry My poetry is influenced by nature, math, science and art. I had an opportunity to study Emily Dickinson at Amherst in the summer of 2017 when I won a grant for the National Endowment for the Humanities. She has always been interesting to me, both her writing and her life. I resonated with…

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  • 11.20.14

    by Carmen H Gray  the waves lapped at the shore industrial waste in a place where freshwater meets saltwater the bright sky viewing a town that feels like a story I’ve written like time stopped here, somewhere in the 1970’s of my childhood and it may as well be a repeat of those chaotic times…

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  • seven letters

    seven letters by Carmen H Gray words synonymous with scan: witness, inspect, survey scrutinize, view, portray words synonymous with survive: withstand, outlast, persist endure, remain, exist four letters can hold seven in prison seven letters have at last risen Seven more sevens float in my eyes 1 injured 2 revolve 3 realize 4 forgive 5…

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  • Symbiotic

    Symbiotic by Carmen H Gray   In the bath that night When your hair of coppery wine Fell out without a fight Your cells committing suicide A part of me died, too They all told me, “this is hardest on the mother” But I kept up appearances for you I held in the fears and…

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  • Bells

    “Ring the bells that still can ring Forget your perfect offering There is a crack in everything That’s how the light gets in.” -Leonard Cohen Bells (for Jackson) by Carmen H Gray The chiming sound That comes from a hollowed, hallowed you Inverted from life’s spiraled bound A premature summoning To another place The space…

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  • Anger

    “Instead of resisting any emotion, the best way to dispel it is to enter it fully, embrace it and see through your resistance.” -Deepak Chopra Anger by Carmen H Gray Who am I to speak of kindness and love? I held everyone else’s anger And thought that I, being so kind Would transform the danger Of…

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  • Zen and The Art of Survivor Maintenance

    PET Scan by Carmen H Gray Whirring noises are the sounds of birds in flight The cold air a misty San Francisco morning in the depths of summer Prayers whispered to Whoever while my hand touches the soft fuzz of her delicate hair Delicate shell, the inverse of Her being, Her soul, Her unconquerable spirit…

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  • The Unbearable Lightness of Being

    “for there is nothing heavier than compassion. Not even one’s own pain weighs so heavy as the pain one feels with someone, for someone, a pain intensified by the imagination and prolonged by a hundred echoes” -Milan Kundera. Tonight was a celebration of Ava’s friend, Jackson’s life.  All of us surrounded together to have fun,…

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  • For Jackson

    Yesterday was a special day for me because it marked the end of a journey with my daughter.  A friend of mine spontaneously invited me to make a wreath with her. She is very creative and talented (I know this because I know her beautiful children, who are also quite clever and innovative).  After this…

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