Fire and Roses

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*Art by Pierce Gray

Fire and Roses

by Carmen Gray

God is a Woman


Because women give birth to life

-Goodnight, my child

I love you

-I love you more

Why is it taking so long to get there?

-I made a wrong turn

It’s okay, even mommies make mistakes

-It doesn’t matter if you win the competition

I don’t want to beat him. He’s my friend

-I love you

I love you more

-Is everything okay?

Time goes so fast, I want it to slow down

-Everything will be alright. We’ll get through it

It hurts. Fuck this life

-It does. I’m sorry

Sometimes I don’t want to wake up

-Sometimes I don’t, either

I’m so mad at you. I hate you

-I’m so mad at you, too.

I’m not going to finish school for anyone else

-Don’t do it for me. Do it for yourself

I will

-Is that a tattoo?

I want to be a tattoo artist

-Put one on me

I want to head West

-I bought you a ticket

I’m scared

-Keep going. I believe in you

I love you

-I love you more

I got a job here!

-I knew you would

I’m sorry if I said mean things to you before

-I’m sorry if I didn’t do everything right

Mom? You’re the gardener, tell me which is best?

-So glad you called me! I like the Ladybug fertilizer

Did you know the female plant is the one with the power? Makes sense, right?

-Yeah, it does

I love you

-I love you more







“Hope is the thing with feathers that perches in the soul And sings the tune without the words and never stops at all.”-Emily Dickinson

Avalina’s Tree

By Carmen H Gray

Once upon a time

You and I took a brush

To the back of your door

And created a haven for colorful birds

To rest and flitter about

A world for your mind to step into

When you were young

Avalina, my child in flight

Always traversing new territory

A Beautiful Facade


Sensitive people faced with the prospect of a camera portrait put on a face they think is the one they would like to show to the world… Every so often what lies behind the facade is rare and more wonderful than the subject knows or dares to believe.

A Beautiful Facade

by Carmen H Gray

Smash it to pieces

The False Face

You wear

To hide

The soft underbelly

The Shadow Self

Rather, the Real Self

We are all Hypocrites


The Perfect Portrait

The paint on the canvas

You find

A blank space

The undeveloped opacity

Of newness

And boundless possibility

Keep Paying It Forward


I took my son and his friend to Half Price Books so they could spend some Christmas money during the after Christmas holiday sale (everything was 20% off).  They were having fun searching for albums….vinyl is making such a huge comeback…..good thing we held onto some albums and a very cool vintage turntable for all these years.  What goes around comes back around eventually.

While I was perusing the R&B section, I listened to a guy go on and on to his friend about how much he loved Sade and a couple of other artists.  I found myself next to him at the register when we were checking out.  I overheard him ask the cashier to hold onto his scores until the 31st, when he would get paid.  They weren’t that much (to me), but to him they were and he seemed so happy about finding them. He walked off to go read a book. I asked the cashier to bring over the albums on hold and she told me, “oh, we can’t sell those, they are on hold for someone.”  “But I want to buy them for him.”  “oh, oh….I get it”, she smiled.  My son and his friend said, “do you know that guy?  What are you doing?”.  “She’s paying it forward, guys,” the cashier told them.  We walked over to the unsuspecting man.  “Merry Belated Christmas!”  I told him and handed him his present.  “What?  You got these for me?  Thank you so much!”  He smiled a fabulous smile and hugged me.  On the walk back to the car my son and his friend said, “that was awesome!”  “yes, it was”, I told them, “Life is circular, like a record. What goes around, comes around. Be kind.”….and besides, I love Sade.