letting go, living, moments

Life Twice, Again

Life Twice, Again

by Carmen H Gray

Life twice, by and by

The want, the wonder, the frivolous why

The comings and goings of faraway ships

Silvery musings forming inside of my lips

Lips that once whispered youthful utterings

While inside my belly where once there were flutterings

A light has broken and shapes appeared in its whiteness

The child, the maiden, the wistful ripeness

And their shadows, no doubt, holding space in the stillness

Therein is where I find myself inhabiting realness

All of the cuts and the sharp words that wished to be said

Rose up to greet my heart gently, without fear or dread

And, I, having lived a singular moment twice

Embraced those shadows in my paradise








“Not knowing when the Dawn will come,
I open every Door”-Emily Dickinson


by Carmen H Gray

Have I ever told you

That your curls are currents of cordial light?

Or that your eyes are the stars themselves captured

From an abundantly dark sky night?

Your smile has sent a comforting diversion

To many a friend in need

The sweetest bow shaped lips give way

To processions to yet proceed

And still, the greatest allure lies

Beyond these fair favors

Gifted to you by heaven itself

Beautiful you, creations and creators





“She is free in her wildness, she is a wanderess, a drop of free water. She knows nothing of borders and cares nothing for rules or customs. ‘Time’ for her isn’t something to fight against. Her life flows clean, with passion, like fresh water.”
―Roman Payne


by Carmen H Gray

Her beauty won’t capture what she needs

It will fade and leave her lonely, she should concede

But what you don’t see is that she isn’t trying

Nor looking, needing, vying or buying

She is a wayfarer here

A sightseer

Of all parts of life

Not a wife

Not a maid

Not afraid

Of what is next

Or who rejects

Her queendom

That is freedom



“Strength does not come from physical capacity. It comes from an indomitable will.”-Mahatma Ghandi


by Carmen H Gray

Piss and vinegar

That’s what little girls like me 

Are made of

At least that’s what

My father always told me

How dare you flaunt

Your sassiness

And buck the rules

And challenge the paradigm

How beautiful

And indomitable

You are

My daughter

He said