Love In The Time of Everything

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Love In The Time of Everything

by Carmen H Gray

When I was little

I wrote about a heroine

In one of my silly chapter books

Writing and writing

My favorite escape

She had auburn hair

And striking green eyes

I didn’t know

She would materialize

That one day she would

Come to be

And how this little sprite

Would change me so

I did not know

It was not all sugar and spice

It was laughter

But also tears

And tumors and fears

Inward reflection

Rejecting affection

I knew


In the time of the highs

That’s the easy part

But my heroine

Showed me how to find


In the time of the lows

And how the cracks

Are certain signs

Of wholeness

Being born


Life Aquatic

Life Aquatic

by Carmen H Gray

Look into their eyes

See we are each other

The wound of alienation

Instability of isolation

Needs a balm

Something to inhibit

Something to calm

The heat, the pressure

Our stories are singular

Within our limited sight

Until we see each other

As combined, voluminous light

Everything external initiates within

And returns there, too

Fear, love, shame, grace

The things outside reflect

The soul’s birthplace

Can it be subdued?

Can it be unbound?

Can we overcome the things

That keep us deeply drowned?

We were once aquatic

Can we go there again?

To that vulnerable state?

Of symbiotic harmony

An encased vertebrate

Exchanging cells

And tissue growth

Can we come back to this life

And see one another

For who we are

Without the violent strife?












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by Carmen H Gray

Today I looked up and saw

Ribbons of white summoning my eyes

They reminded me how the time is now

My hot breath the engine

Forming billows of momentary exhaust

In my own expansive sky

For the ants beneath my feet

Today I caught that second when

His eyes met with yours

I saw the electricity flowing

Like those captivating contrails

Saturation Vapor Pressure

Over Ice

A mixture of luck and presence

And gratitude for being here in this now


Six Ray Sunrise


Six Ray Sunrise

by Carmen H Gray 


I don’t believe in accidental incidents

That bright ladybug I saw the day after he died

Those hundreds of monarchs suspending me

Upending me when I needed a sign to hang on

The tower card pulled by my oldest

Upon her leaving, saying gently to me

Mama, look to the voyaging river in the background

Not the crumbling tower of yesterday

The Violet Ray I see when I close my eyes

And summon truth or rather when Truth summons me

The last day of this year of profound unity

When I look at the sky

And Six Rays look back at me








by Carmen H Gray

I traveled into the black hole

I was warned I’d be spaghettified

Maybe I have been

My heart was stretched

My thoughts were ripped apart

And all things were upended

They said “you won’t make it back”

Fare thee well

“You will be dead to me” I heard

But death begets a new life

For inside a chrysalis

A being dissolves


Spaghettified, one might say

I don’t think I made it back

To where I was

The world is not as it was before

Within the limitless chaos

There is order in the unexpected

Hope IS the thing with feathers

Like Emily writes














“Tell all truth but tell it slant”-Emily Dickinson


by Carmen H Gray

Life is not defined by a straight path

A neat and perfect bow fastened fascinates

Because of its obliqueness

Sharp angles and diagonal descent

Rising action leaning into soft, unexplored regions

Create curiosity for finding folded treasure

Hidden in the hugs of a line

Are Truths woven exactly

One degree more than its parallel below

Inviting you to unbind it